One of the hardest things I've ever had to do...

Not been a fun day today, Sharon's hair has been really thinning over the last week or so (due to the chemo), and it's got so bad that she has been scared to brush it in case she pulls out clumps. As a result she has looked like she has had a birds nest on her head for the last few days and has not ventured out of the flat.

After waking up yet again, with hair all over the pillow, she finally worked up the courage to take control of the situation today and asked me to shave her head with the clippers. I think it must be the hardest thing I have ever had to do. It was so upsetting to see her crying as I cut all her hair, but it had to be done, as it was really affecting her morale.

Now she has done it, she says she feels better, especially as the black wig arrived yesterday, so she looks just like she did when we met, and she feels like she has got her hair back, but I think when she does eventually work up the courage to look at herself in the mirror without the wig she is going to find it really distressing.

How do I feel? Well, to be honest, it is shocking to see her with a very short stubble instead of a full head of hair, but I still think she is beautiful.